| | It's like looking out your window right at dusk. When objects become outlines. And each silohette has its different shade of black. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | aida's snoring! | | Time: | 10:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/geeky.gif) nerdy |
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| School started. Other than the very few people who i actually like there, the people suck. My teachers are rad. I'm a nerd. My boyfriend is the best ever. I am really happy.
I miss my Alyssa Rose. And Noelle. and CHEYNE! And the fun times we used to have with eachother. It sucks when life gets in the way of friendships.
I hate old best friends that only use me when they break up with their bf or if they need a ride. Then turn around and get mad at me for being best friends with someone else. I don't really hate them though because i don't hate anything.
This entry is pointless. but i haven't updated in awhile. | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| Sometimes i remember why i used to hang out with only guys. Way less stressful, and less frustrating.
I got a barbie. She's wayy hot. But it bothers me that all of the blonde ones are hotter than the brunettes.
I finished another one of my books for summer reading and found out that it was about princes sodomizing little boys. Proper for school?? Maybe not.
It's good to be home....kind of. I feel like i had more to write but i can't figure out what it was....oh except tap your 3rd eye 20 times... | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| This whole summer I have seemed to be dealing with other peoples problems. Mainly because I don't really have anything to bitch and whine about. So I want to be there and help out my friends! But lately it has been too much for me to handle. Two of my close friends have been sent to mental hospitals just in one summer. I've been feeling a little overwhelmed.
Last night had the perfect cure for me. My brother had a beach house for 10 days down in Huntington for his graduation. Yesterday was the last day that he had it. So my friends and I went over to hang out I guess. Aida and I decided that we wanted to go swimming at 11 at night in the ocean. The only problem was that we didn't have bathing suits, so we got naked instead. Maybe we were crazy because the water was supposed to be FREEZING! but once we actually got down there it was really warm. I was told that I looked like x-files due to my extremely white complexion.
Anyways we felt free and careless for the first time this whole summer. And it provided us with an amazing adrenaline rush. haha oh man.... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| This is what happens when blue get's hungry....
note that my other cat shay has black hair.
I'm going to san fransisco for two days. I'm excited....
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| | Time: | 01:56 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sob.gif) lonely |
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| It's funny how you can know something but can't really come to terms with it. And even though everybody on the outside can see the truth and what's really going on, you're still blinded.
I hate finally letting my guard down with someone and having it totally taken advantage of. I hate the games people play with others emotions as if they aren't even human beings. But most of all...i hate being lied to.
Anyways i've been feeling quite icky. The mere fact that some person can make me feel like that sucks. But it seems to be passing. I'm feeling much better now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Cursive-the lament of pretty baby | | Time: | 05:14 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/happy.gif) pleased |
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| Making about three trips to irvine a night is fun. However an awful waste of gas. After having a car for 4 days, I now realize how much I want a car. I'd like to say need except I feel things you need are life and death. And I have survived this long without a car, I can survive again until I have enough self control to save up money. Damn I suck! Ashley's up at Berkley. I wanted to go simply because I love San Francisco but also because I am contemplating going to college there.
I am lucky to have had such wonderful parents. Even though half of the time they totally don't understand me(but who's parents really do?)....they've done everything they can to provide me with comfortable living. And I've never had to deal with some of the stuff my other friends have had to. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Man will rob another man over a thought (I need/want money)
Man will kill a man over a thought (I don't like what they believe-religion)
Man will destroy the planet over a thought (I need resources)
Man will build cities, roads and civilizations over a thought (I'm afraid of nature)
Man will destroy families over a thought (I must have sex with that person)
Man creates all things because of a thought and then satisfies himself with another thought (Since I'm man and I can think, I'm better than all the other creatures on the planet)
What if all other things think as well? What if their thoughts are different then ours? What if their thoughts don't require them to take away from other creatures?
Well, you might say- so what? Or well, I can't stop thinking! No you can't but you can accept that your thoughts have no more value than a particle of sand. And that in some instances a particle of sand has more value than your thoughts.
This does not mean that YOU have no value, you may be the most valuable thing on the planet.
When your thoughts make your depressed or discouraged, remember they are only thoughts.
Rethink-to think again. Unless you enjoy the darkness of depression-learn to think again. Learn to control your thoughts, throw away those that don't benefit you and others. Keep those that help you and others. Build more helpful thoughts.
Laugh at your own thoughts. Laugh at others thoughts-remember, they are only thoughts. Unfortunately, many people believe they are their thoughts. They aren't and neither are you.
If you were your thoughts, what would you be when you sleep? You can say dreaming is thinking, is it? So if you are your thoughts, do you cease to exist when you sleep?
Thoughts are a wonderful tool. Use them for direction. I want to build a ramp. How do i design it? What materials do i need? All of those thoughts end up producing something, something you enjoy. Thoughts produce actions and provide direction for spending time and creating something.
Thoughts can also provide bad direction. I want to drink so much I become an alcoholic, I want something so badly i steal it, etc.
Love your thoughts, but remember, they're only thoughts. Use them, craft them, share them. Have no attachment to any of them and know all of them, both good and bad, as your friend, then you will live the most wonderful life possible.
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With the exception of some of it being terribly cheesy, i think my dad is wonderful. He wrote this to my brother for his graduation. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| Today was amazing. Having finished 2 more of my finals I felt the weight on my shoulders lifting. I went to buy some new shoes to wear with this awesome dress tomorrow to my brothers graduation. I spent time with my best friend. I went to work to find a new guy there training to be a chef. It turns out he didn't have an american name yet, so he asked me and my co-worker to name him. This made me extremely excited. His Chinese name sounded like Simba. So jokingly Emma and I said his name was Simba. And he loved it. Therefore his new name is Simba. As in the cub from The Lion King. Leave it up to me to pick something Disney. After we named Simba, the old chef Jason wanted a new name. His Chinese name sounded like Trinity. Even though we said it sounded like a female name, Jason loved the name Trinity.
After work i proceeded to come home, change, and as i'm walking out the door i was pleasantly surprised. Can you say cutest boy ever??
I then went to study spanish with alyssa over at her house. As i walk in the door her mom brings us hot chocolate. We studied for a bit. Talked for most of the time. Alyssa is one of my favorite people to talk to. She is amazing.
I had more to say, but i forgot. And who really wants to read about my day anyways!?! haha night. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| "His love for life was his greatest fault"
Schools almost out. Finals are coming up. I could get either all A's. or 3 B's and the rest A's. Too bad i suck at tests and studying. Damn i need straight A's.
My best friend has been getting a lot of shit from some certain people. And it hasn't discouraged her in the least. She's so amazing, i love her.
Umm no make up and a tiara....hot???
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| AP Bio's dead cat skins hanging on the railing of the portables was not a pleasant site to see walking to chemistry. It actually made me sick to my stomach and not to mention sad. I missed hint hint and ddm tonight due to working for a minumum wage job. Hint Hint would have been amazing.
Today while in spanish i observed a boy named Tony. He is cubby. Growing a beard (a little like the kind that lumberjakcs have). Doesn't have a great sense of style. A little lazy eyed. And not to terribly smart. But what i saw beneath all of that was a guy who seemed like the kindest soul i have yet to meet. I would like to be his friend. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Running around del taco as if a killer were after us with Aida is fun. The killer was Cheyne. His weapon of choice, a water bottle....resulting in wet hair for Aida and Elyse. I got married to three people tonight. Out of those three people we have ten kids, all of which are named Jacob. And my daughter Jacob Taylor has a best friend. I am the best friends second mom. And i have a lover on the side named Andy. But Andy likes to be Jacob's(my husband) lover too. So it's like a triangle. Sitting in Pauls car with Jessie and Aida blasting spice girls and remembering most of the words was exciting as well. I miss my best friend. Tonight was fun. I got to see my first husband martin. I think i should be Mormon.
I saw Cursive on Friday. The whole show was amazing....except the awful metal band. Anyways i wish i wouldn't have been so tired. I got to hang out with Alyssa, Noelle, and Joe. All three people i highly respect and admire. We are fun together.
goodnight. | | comments: 14 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | evergreen terrace-in my dreams i can fly | | Time: | 11:15 pm | | Current Mood: | chipper |
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| My furbee is really sick. When I wake him up all he does is sneeze and say "me scared". Aida woke him up yesterday and when he said something she screamed. It was the funniest thing ever.
I went shopping today. I like getting new clothes. Then again, who doesn't? Ashley and I made Paul and Jessica stay at the mall forever. I feel bad.
I hate drama. And liars....that is all. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| i'm posting this even though it's lame and no one will reply!! :)
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Have we ever had sex?
33. Do you miss me?
34. Do you think i miss you? | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| Setting: Sitting in spanish class with 3 minutes until the bell rings. Elyse is doing chemistry homework, due 6th period, eavesdropping on some fellow students.
Characters:Boy 1 (elyse has only spanish with him)
Boy 2 (elyse has spanish and honors english with him)
And Elyse
Boy 1(talking to a girl): Merh merh merh go eat some lettuce, it burns more calories eating it than it contains.
Boy 2: no it doesn't you liar.
Boy 1: Yes it does, i heard it somewhere...supermodels eat that so they can stay skinny.
Elyse(interrupting): Actually you're thinking of celery, and possibly iceberg lettuce.
Boy 1: YES iceberg, that's what i heard.
Boy 2: Serious?? Or are you just saying that 'cuz that's what she said.
Boy 1: because that's what she said, she's a freakin' genius.
Boy 2: yeah, she is pretty smart.
If you were there you would've understood how it was a nice compliment. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | trailer trash-modest mouse | | Time: | 10:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sad.gif) cold |
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| I feel like i am losing my best friend.
I miss Alyssa. She never wants to hang out anymore!! Billy makes her happy, it's cute.
Jessica's party on Friday was a bust. It got ended at 10:30. And now i believe she is in some trouble. Poor her.
Racing slide track cars is fun. Double dating with Hilda and Adrian was fun too. I miss Andy. :) | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Sometimes, friends make stupid decisions. Decisions that affect everyone around them, or at least their bank accounts. These friends are lucky to have people who care about them. And should, at one point or other, start thinking about ways to stop being so selfish. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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